i’m struck today, for like the millionth time, how much there is to learn, how much there is to practice, how much there is to improve. i realized some this afternoon that i’ve been unintentionally communicating a bunch of emotions that i don’t actually have – i’ve been emoting very grouchy/grumpy, when that’s not something i actually feel. as i’ve mentioned a bunch of times, i feel that i’m in a super-charmed part of my life, where everything feels great, including work, family and health. i remember having the same feeling at stanford in the spring of my last year – everything was lazy afternoons at Sunken Diamond eating a slushy. but i guess that’s not what my external visage has been communicating to everyone here, so i need to work on that some.

anyway, i’m just reminded that no matter how long i’ve been doing certain things, no matter how much i practice, there are always, always things i need to work on more, get better at, and relearn.

sometimes that realization is tough for me – but at the moment, i’m sort of refreshed by it.