i’m struck today, for like the millionth time, how much there is to learn, how much there is to practice, how much there is to improve. i realized some this afternoon that i’ve been unintentionally communicating a bunch of emotions that i don’t actually have — i’ve been emoting very grouchy/grumpy, when that’s not something i actually feel. as i’ve mentioned a bunch of times, i feel that i’m in a super-charmed part of my life, where everything feels great, including work, family and health. i remember having the same feeling at stanford in the spring of my last year — everything was lazy afternoons at Sunken Diamond eating a slushy. but i guess that’s not what my external visage has been communicating to everyone here, so i need to work on that some.
anyway, i’m just reminded that no matter how long i’ve been doing certain things, no matter how much i practice, there are always, always things i need to work on more, get better at, and relearn.
sometimes that realization is tough for me — but at the moment, i’m sort of refreshed by it.
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This is a nice introspection. Whenever I feel that my outward emotions are not aligned with my inner viewpoint, I try to think about what my outward facing actions are trying to elicit from those with whom I interact. Hopefully the reaction and response I receive aligns with what I was hoping to get from someone and with what I think. If so, then I bet I have communicated what I want.I also try to look at the premise of each of my thoughts, arguments, and opinions. Once I have a grasp on why I believe what I do or what it is I want to accomplish (and it always begins at the premise of my belief…if I can get there), then I feel like my outward and inner feelings align. To me, this is critical to feeling good about how I interacted with others.Not sure if there is any sense to be made from these thoughts, but if I follow this practice, I have found that I am able to communicate what I really feel…I think. 🙂 OK, I’m done pontificating….
This is a nice introspection. Whenever I feel that my outward emotions are not aligned with my inner viewpoint, I try to think about what my outward facing actions are trying to elicit from those with whom I interact. Hopefully the reaction and response I receive aligns with what I was hoping to get from someone and with what I think. If so, then I bet I have communicated what I want.
I also try to look at the premise of each of my thoughts, arguments, and opinions. Once I have a grasp on why I believe what I do or what it is I want to accomplish (and it always begins at the premise of my belief…if I can get there), then I feel like my outward and inner feelings align. To me, this is critical to feeling good about how I interacted with others.
Not sure if there is any sense to be made from these thoughts, but if I follow this practice, I have found that I am able to communicate what I really feel…I think. 🙂
OK, I’m done pontificating….